Tuesday, October 21, 2008

A fish out of Water

You know that feeling...?
I'm sure we've all felt it at some point in our lives...some less than others.
The feeling comes when you just joined a group of friends, and you're not fully integrated yet...so you feel out of place.
Understandable after all...everyone knows each other better than you do, there are the inside jokes, plans you don't yet know of..so on....
It sucks balls when you experience that feeling with the group of people you've spent the last three years of your life with.
Through no fault of the people involved, mind you...I'm not accusing...
and I can't even explain why...
What makes it worst is...since the past three years have been spent with these people...and me being me...and the university course choices I made...they are the only real group of friends you have...(now i sound just sad...) but its true...everyone else is merely an aquantance....
Which is why I've been a bit on the down side lately...(for those who where wondering and asking)
It's that feeling of not belonging...anywhere.
...
yeah...
I know these sad depressing outburst of feelings and thought are like so last season but i don't follow fashion...so if you don't like it, don't read it, and if you got this far already and think I'm being stupid to feel this way...*shrugs*

well...
thats it

7 comments:

Rachie said...

If sad depressing outbursts of feelings and thought rly are so last season, I was bang on trend, and carried it forward to this season. So, at least, you have one thing off your list (:
As for the rest, being an acquaintance myself, i can hardly comment except to say that so far, most people I know -me included- have gone through that phase. Multiple times even.

Kuragg! Blessings!

karla said...

like miss.cilia said...every1 goes through that time...ive recently gone through it too and im finally getting out of it..its hard making new friends but sim uve got a really friendly character and im sure u can fit in anywere u set ur mind to...tc Gbu =)

nessa said...

but i love you... :)

aud_fen25 said...

That's exactly how I used to feel whenever I went to youth prayer meetings...

Anonymous said...

hey bro wasssup!?

greetings from spain:P

...I just to put u in da pic...uve just packed ur bags...left d island...left ur family...ur friends...ur home...ur beloved...and all that uve grown to know...and u land in a country where u cant spk much of d language, live alone, go to a new building called ur 'new school' and have to make friends from SCRATCH...like ur starting year 1 at d age of 20...plus...no familiar faces...anywer...not even wen u return home...no familiar faces wotsoever...apart from your loved ones on a 2d surface...called a photo hanging on ur wardrobe...and this repeats itself day in day out...and d story continues in d same fashion...and not even after 1 month...still no familiar face around u...think about dat...;)

Hav an awesome day!
God bless u,
DEZ ;)

Simon said...

That was a choice though...wasn't it.
Plus...not knowing anyone is one thing...seeing people you should know...and feeling like a stranger is completely different.

Anonymous said...

I never said they are the same situation. i just gave u an insight into sum1 elses life. zooming out of ur picture and giving a thought for other ppls lives might help.

hav a nice day.
Dez.