pressure

Disclaimer: I apologize for the lack of blogs relating events, a lot is happening, I just don't feel inclined to write about them.

this feeling,

it's surely not a pleasant one,

it's a constant feeling,

like something is sitting on your chest

and making it difficult to breathe

you take a deep breath 

it comes out in waves

you expect yourself to cry 

at any second

but can't

as your mind still hasn't fully understood what happened

still hasn't accepted,

you're looking for something to stop the feeling in your chest,

you automatically want a hug from the cause of it,

knowing it will only make it worst,

so,

you try put you mind on something else...

rabbids,

cookies,

driving,

swimming,

...

...

...her.

At Chapter's End

And with my heart beating fast and my hand trembling slightly, I place the last full stop to another chapter.

I must say, that chapter was a really special one to me, I really enjoyed it, and wanted it to keep going for as long as possible. And now that it came to an end, I feel very sad and more than slightly empty, but at peace, knowing I wrote it out to the full, and tried my best to make it a good one, as did my co-writer. I know it was the time for it to end. It's a chapter of my life story I will hold dear to my heart always. 

Flipping through it again I smile remembering particular episodes and laugh at various other. It's a chapter I'm going to miss alot. 

A tear.

I realise I have learnt alot while it was being written though, and one thing which makes me smile broadly is that as the chapter had unfolded I got to know the characters in it alot and I'm grateful for that. Also, as the pen touches page again, as I begin the next chapter, while missing the closeness with the characters, I'm happy in the knowlege the characters from that chapter will continue featuring greatly in the future chapters making up my story. 

New Chapters.

My story.

My life.

Showing off the legs

I have donned the shorts and flip flops :)

It has reached that weather...

I am happy...

and I'm sad

nice weather but studies to do.

blah

but im still happy

got my last result: the result to Human Communications...the bitch oral exam that everyone was scared off...I got an A+....

the result came in yesterday and I thought it was an April fools, i seriously did.

Anyway...

erm...I started a diary....and by that i mean an appointment diary...not the "dear diary" type of thing, but with assignment dates, and filming dates, and meetings, i keep forgetting stuff.

Had another fun day on the grass on campus yesterday...I'm thinking of making another video with all these meetings...which have turned into a kinda tradition now...

and then we drove up to the edge of the world to take Achie home.

erm....

I'm reading Maskerade by Terry Pratchett again...I know I should be reading my school books, but, it's Terry Pratchett, will be done by Sunday. He has a new one coming out in September :)

I will now go make noodles.

and tonight the Guys Fenkata....

:)

out